my beautiful life with him

Yesterday I woke up mid-morning, like I do when I work late. I put on some boxers and was about to go upstairs to connect with The Man I Adore, with whom I have the good fortune of being partnered. He'd heard my footsteps and come down. We greeted and kissed. I told him I wanted to spend some time together with him. Could we cuddle under the covers? - our bed wasn't made yet.

We crawled in and spooned and talked. Changed positions a couple times. Caught up from the weekend since I'd been gone one night, and our work schedules kept us apart for a couple days. One of the things I like about Him is that he expresses love and affection daily, especially if we're horizontal. But also all the time. Words get to my heart, and I have found someone whom I can gift my love too. We expressed love and gratitude for eachother, and then the energy shifted to a powerful sensation originating in the groin, running up and down the body from there. The making out picked up the new vibe. I remain conscious of not letting this new energy take over and become urgency. Of riding it and remaining communicative, and letting this delicious physicality bring us closer, not just turn inward into greediness. Staying present to Him.

I took his clothes off and my boxers off, which delighted him. Our boners are at high attention. And seeing his only excites me more. I crawl on top of him and descend into his open arms. It's like coming home. The rythms get going gently. I grab the lube at the bedside table and put on both of our cocks. This always excites him even more. My or his hand hold our cocks as we pseudo-fuck, slightly altering leg and arm holds frequently.

We stay in touch with our eyes, whispering sweet gratitude truths, kissing often. We've consciously decided to be awake to eachother, and also to enjoy sex from the perspective of abundance - that it's always available, it's not going to run out, there is no hurry or scarcity. Release expectations and delight in what's unfolding.

I have him in a wrestling-pin-like position under me and hump him until I cum. His hand holding my cock warmly. We penetrate less often than other couples I think. I take him to completion with my hand - and kissing - shortly. Then we throw a little towel between us to soak up the yummyness on our abs, and relax in eachother's embrace. This is as amazing as the pre-ejaculation eagerness and the orgasm. Gentle talking and moments of silence intersperse. I lay listening to his heart. Man I love Him.

We get up, I exercise while he cooks - in the same big room. We enjoy listening to pandora's selection of musicals, we're going to one later this week. We eat a delicious lunch he's made, and I'm off to work. He's sitting at the edge of the bed, and after putting on my socks, I kneel to tell him my truth: I have such a dream life with him. Its better than any dream I could have invented. A goodbye kiss. He sends me away with food for my shift, and when I open it later at work I'm flooded with warmness for Him.

Really, what a beautiful life I have with The Man I Adore.

orgy with 18

Have you ever gone around smiling, unable to tell others why you are smiling?

I organized my fifth orgy at my place, and had the largest turn-out yet. Previously the largest turn-out was 8 guys. This last time was 18!

I have a partner that I love, a very satisfying sex life, and I am very committed to him. So part of me wonders - what is it that I am looking for? Why do I continue to seek intimacy and adventure with others? What drives me to go through all the work to organize, host, find, interact with, invite, and screen all these guys for a group experience? Part of it is an unquenchable desire for intimacy and closeness with other good people. Part of it is newness, though more and more that is newness of person, not necessarily specific act. I love meeting new people and experiencing them, and experiencing life together. I like creating community. I like creating new out-side-the-box experiences. Heck, and I like sex!

A few things I did differently this time. After we had about 8-9 guys there I had them introduce themselves and what they wanted and didn't want. Like: "I'm really looking to get fucked a few times tonight. I LOVE to bottom. And I can't stand shit. The smell of it sends me running." We got a few good laughs, and the rawness of the sharing was refreshing and contagious. Then we took off our clothes and got started getting frisky. There's always the bold ones that jump right in. And the shy ones that sit back nervously, but then get hard and jump in, or get approached gently by another guy who comes and sits next to them.

This was the most conversational group I'd ever had. Chatty actually sometimes. While the lights are dimmed and the naked bodies squirming. I was glad they felt comfortable together, but actually hoped they'd talk less for a while since that sometimes dampens the eroticism. They explored and enjoyed some time before anyone penetrated. Soon enough two then three and four were fucking, moaning, and sending everyone aroused smiling. I have some great mirrors that people liked too.

I spent a good amount of time answering the outside door and receiving and answering texts from arriving guys. Last time I limited the entrance time to one hour, this time no limit. Next time I want to trade off with one to two other guys to answer the door - so that I can get some quality uninterrupted sex time :).

About half the guys were model-like beautiful - and the other half of us more boy-next-door beautiful. I was attracted to several, and made sure to spend time with Hairy Muscle Guy, Thin Blue-Eyed Bearded Wonder, Gymnast Sexy Bottom, Nervous Bubble-Butt Jock, and Shy Ripped Shoulders Dude. I didn't get around as much as I'd liked to to Energizer-Bunny Top, Good Friend with Piercings, partnered with Smooth-Head Military Young Guy, and Buzzed Head Lying on His Back.

Another few things I intended differntly: I wanted more guys in their 40's and late 30's. Traditionally most of the guys are in their 20's. I wanted the additional wealth of experience and increased life vocabulary brought to the bedroom by my peers. We had 3 guys in the 40's, great additions and energy, and sexy as could be. I had the honor of being embraced with Shy Ripped Shoulders Dude which eventually led to both us us cumming. I envisioned a group with more friendliness, perhaps guys that would get together socially too, and guys that I could call friends and relate with in more ways than naked. Good conversations, principled people, kind and blessing in their physical demonstrations. Just the very act of intending this at the outset I think invited more of this energy that evening and after.

Insatiable Bottom Friend came late and stayed the night with me. He came late enough that he only got pounded once by Good Friend with Piercings, and then in the morning by me. Was nice to wake up naked with Bottom Friend in my bed, run my hands up and down his trim back, grind my hard cock gently before inserting with a condom. I did my best to avoid cumming for several cycles. He came first on all fours, his favorite position. I let myself cum phenomenally. Was nice to talk and cuddle with him again. Maybe next time we'll have an optional cuddle sleep-over for those who want.

I screen for social normalcy, getting along with others, low drama, attractiveness. The guys don't have to be models, heck I'm not, but at least sufficiently fit and proportionate. And, let's face it, there are alot of outrageously sexy guys. I'm often amazed at how many attractive guys there are, just by the asking. I try not to think that people are in different leagues from eachother.

I also took great joy in watching the guys - after cumming - sitting in eachother's arms talking, carressing eachother's faces, running their fingers over their butts or chests. I was pleased to see them exchange phone numbers. And pleased to receive their grateful texts and see that they were interacting with eachother even the very next day. More love in the world. More happiness. More friendship - and good people coming together. Sexy - philosophical - like-minded guys finding eachother.

Was  a great night and worth the effort and time in planning and communicating. Looking forward to inviting most of the guys back for the next time, plus a few others.

he looking at me

A while ago I was jogging with Bearded Sexy Hiker. We were discussing how to deal with having told your partner a million times not to do something - and they're still doing it. And how to get over it. Mine was asking my partner to get his clothes ready the night before - and leave them in the bathroom to get dressed there. We sometimes have different schedules, and I need my sleep. But at the time he continued to come in and out of the bedroom getting dressed, getting things, waking me multiple times.

I explained how frustrated I was. I explained how many times I'd told my partner.

My new observant friend made an observation that softened my heart. He said, "knowing K, he's probably going into the bedroom and getting dressed watching you, appreciating you. He likely just wants to be near you." In an instant I pictured my Love standing there looking at me sleeping, adoring me, and my heart melted. He likely was doing that. Knowing him, and his heart, and where his eyes go, I decided to appreciate him back, even if he woke me in the mornings.

My reminders nearly stopped. An occasional reminder was given gently and with loving gratitude for my deer-eyed sweet-heart. And then he started getting dressed in the bathroom, leaving me to sleep, only to come and kiss me goodbye on his way out to work. Man I'm a blessed man. But even if K hadn't done what I asked, my perspective changed as I viewed my partner as he really is - an adoring man free of malice and full of simple love. Not forgetful and uncaring. Just watching me gratefully and appreciating me. Simply. God I'm lucky.

And I'm lucky for intuitive friends like Bearded Sexy Hiker. Thank you.