delicious night

tonight I walk

6 miles home

past midnight

sweet ocean smells

summer stars

delicious night 

my city sleeps 

millions in

and I savor

like a lucious flower

not knowing 

if I will 

see her many years

or if this is it

melancholy joy

thinking 

on the romp this morn

with 

lanky paleo diet man

so sweet and skilled in bed

and so quiet

thinking how I will tell my lover

who I wept under 

2 mornings ago

in another paradise 

I worry about his feelings

yet I will have my freedom

I accept no cage

trust it will be fine 

and beautiful petit muscle capoeira man 

glasses

wounded yet open 

frenzied fuck with the otter

before work

damn its hot to be alive 

I smile remembering 

sometimes I wonder

why am I so driven 

is there something wrong with me? 

it is what it is

I accept and honor 

this drinking in 

bearded man with cancer

holy spiritual 

I read his book 

having met him as his servant 

and think on his life

alaska solitary nights

rowing on the moonlit sea

walking on the island snow trail

millionaire 

resigned to simplicity

relishing 

I pass a homeless man 

sitting before the bridge

do I become a teacher

online entrepreneur

where is my calling 

many questions

many moments to surrender

to fullness all around 

man this day was good 

a good day to die

not that I want to die today

but that I lived it fully

well

cherishing

this delicious night